It seems like such a very long time since I can remember not being worried about something. After all, I am a mom of many. I have been told by some that I have a great capacity to love. Unfortunately I think that is often accompanied by a great capacity to fret.
As is often the case when studying the Word of God, I gleaned new truths from familiar teaching. Romans 8:28 is a favorite.
Here’s how The Message rewords it. “That’s why we can be sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.”
You know what, I believe that with all my heart, I truly do. So, then why do I so easily slip into a state of worry? Why then do I catch a glimpse of myself at times and see that instead of a prayer-warrior, I resemble a prayer-worrier?
This morning I was having my devotional time and was listening to the book of James, a favorite book, being read from the Message as well. Right in the first chapter, here is what I heard.
“If you don’t know what you’re doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You’ll get his help, and won’t be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought. People who “worry their prayers” are like wind-whipped waves.”
Wind-whipped waves. Mercy, that was a fair description of how I’ve felt on more days than I can count. I’m pretty sure that prior to parenthood, I was convinced I knew what I was doing (and what most other folks should be doing). But, then, suddenly I was given responsibilities for young lives that were broken and scared and scarred as a foster-parent. Almost immediately I realized I did not know what I was doing, not in the slightest, and I desperately needed spiritual guidance and wisdom and strength beyond my own.
I’m going to make a concerted effort to make sure that I am not ‘worrying my prayers’. I am going to practice taking the stance of a warrior instead of a worrier.
I think that is the bottom line. As a warrior, we feel empowered while a worrier is instead cowered. I do not want to live my life in a state of distress and feeling overwhelmed constantly. I want to face life with courage and hope.
How about you? What will you choose? Prayer-warrior or prayer worrier? Will you waste energy and time rehearsing, retelling and reliving the things that have happened or may happen? Or will you choose to trust the Lord with the details, with the results, with the future?
Father, you designed us and know us better than we know ourselves. You understand how easy it can be for us to worry our prayers. You also love us too much to leave us in that unhealthy place. I am so glad. Help us Lord, help us to resist the urge to be a prayer-worrier. Remind us how it feels to make a real difference as a prayer-warrior! Amen!